BILLIE Eilish admitted that she's 'incredibly embarrassed & ashamed of her past' after racism allegations resurfaced.
Reported by USWeekly, the Bad Guy singer addressed her previous poor behavior in her Vogue Australia cover story, published on Friday, July 16th.
The 19-year-old told the publication, “The internet brings up things from everybody’s past and I’m like: ‘Don’t you guys understand that everybody is incredibly embarrassed and ashamed about their past?’”
She continued: “Like, ‘Do you not think about the fact that maybe you’re embarrassed of your past, so maybe everybody else is embarrassed, too?’”
The Grammy winner was referring to videos that were compiled by a TikTok user where the singer was seemingly acting problematic by making racist remarks.
In the video, Billie had filmed herself at different moments and in one of them, she mouthed the word "c**nk."
In other moments, she and her brother Finneas were interacting before she mocked him by adopting an Asian accent.
There was another clip where Billie, who appeared to be in school at the time, made fun of an Asian worker.
The songwriter explained to the magazine: “The weirdest thing is how nothing ever goes away once it’s on the internet. Every interview I did when I was 15 is still out there, and I think about it constantly. … When you’re a f–king teenager, you don’t really know yourself, so you’re trying to figure yourself out. That was the hardest thing for me: I didn’t actually know how I really felt. So I just came up with this façade that I stuck to.”
Last month, Billie took to Instagram with an emotional apology claiming she's "appalled and embarrassed."
Billie posted a long message in her Instagram stories apologizing for the slur in the video saying: "I love you guys, and many of you have been asking me to address this. And this is something I WANT to address because I'm being labeled something that I am not.
"There's a video edit going around of me when I was 13 or 14 where I mouthed a word from a song that at the time I didn't know was a derogatory term used against members of the Asian community. I am appalled and embarrassed and want to barf that I ever mouthed along to that word."
"This song is the only time I'd ever heard that word as it was never used around me by anyone in my family. Regardless of the ignorance and age at the time, nothing excuses the fact that it was hurtful. And for that I am sorry."
Billie went on: "The other video in that edited clip is me speaking in a silly gibberish made up voice… something I started doing as a kid and have done my whole life when talking to my pets, friends, and family.
"It is absolutely gibberish and just me goofing around, and is in NO way imitation of anyone or any language, accent, or culture in the SLIGHTEST.
"Anyone who knows me has seen me goofing around with voices my whole life. Regardless of how it was interpreted I did not mean for any of my actions to have caused hurt to others and it absolutely breaks my heart that it is being labeled now in a way that might cause pain to people hearing it."
"I not only believe in, but have always worked hard to use my platform to fight inclusion, kindness, tolerance, equity and equality. We all need to continue having conversations, listening and learning. I hear you and I love you."
Billie has also recently been accused of "queerbating" with her most recent music video.
The LA native's fans claimed she'd been hinting she's LGBTQ with her Lost Cause music video, in which she dances with a group of girls in a slumber party setting.
Fans also pointed out Billie's recent Instagram post, in which she shared photos from the video and wrote: "I love girls."
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