HONEY Ross proudly reflects on how far she's come after her anxiety and depression battle battle stopped her from leaving the house.
The activist, 23 – who is the daughter of Jonathan Ross – revealed last year that she was so depressed she struggled to leave the house.
However, exactly a year later, Honey has reflected on that time in her life – and tells people life is "so worth surviving for".
She wrote: "This was something I wrote on world mental health day last year. Been thinking a lot about my healing journey because of suicide awareness week.
"I can't believe how far I've come. I'm so happy to be alive. Promise it gets better and it's so worth surviving for. [sic.]"
In the post from last year, Honey shared a photo of herself as a child giving two fingers up to the camera.
Then as the caption, she details her mental health battle that saw her struggling to leave the home.
She wrote: "It’s world mental health day and it’s time for a long post . On this app that seems to take up a lot of my life, I try to be as authentic as possible, but looking through my grid, I really haven’t achieved that recently.
"I’ve been in a depression so deep and heavy that this has honestly been the hardest couple of months I’ve experienced in a long time.
"My anxiety has been so severe I’ve struggled to leave the house, getting out of bed most days felt like an impossibility – and for a while I literally didn’t tell anyone I was feeling this bad. Mental health is fucking wild.
"I had a moment with a good friend towards the end of August where she asked how I was and I told her truthfully that I’d been doing terribly and she was so shocked because my social media made it look like I was having the time of my life.
"Spoiler alert: I wasn’t. I think I used to be more open on this platform and honestly, I think it’s probably because I had less boundaries and a much greater need to share things when I wasn’t ready to.
"My mental health will always be complicated – it will most likely always be a part of my life in some way. I’m currently on two different antidepressants but who knows, maybe one day I’ll only be on one – or even god knows, none.
"But for now this is me. I’m doing better, things are starting to feel brighter, leaving the house feels easier, waking up isn’t impossible – but this is temporary.
"The good can’t exist without the bad, and vice versa. And that’s okay.
"Somedays I hate my brain and feel like it’s a haunted house – but then I remember that I’m still capable of creating beautiful things and having wonderful connections, and I do that all whilst carrying the burden of my anxiety, depression and ptsd.
"That’s pretty fucking amazing. I’ve been through a lot of shit and honestly I never really thought I’d make it this far.
"But I’m here, and so are you. We’re in this together – neighbours on a street full of haunted houses. I’ll be waving to you as we live to see another day."
Honey opened up to The Sun last week about how seeing trolls commenting on her weight as a teenager damaged her mental health.
She also suffered a sexual assault which “ruined” her life for two years — and left her feeling “so alone”.
Honey told us: "There were times when I didn’t think I’d make it to being this happy young woman."
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