Paddy McGuinness couldn't hold back the tears as he gushed over his wife Christine and their three autistic children in their new BBC documentary Paddy And Christine McGuinness: Our Family And Autism.
The 48 year old, who recently had a vasectomy as they knew it wasn't right to have anymore children, opened up on their twins Leo and Penelope, eight, and Felicity, five, in powerful scenes.
Breaking down, Paddy explained how lucky their children are to have a mum like Christine, 33. Gushing over her, he said: “Our kids dropped the lottery with Christine because they couldn’t wish for a better mum.”
The Top Gear host then shared how all three of their kids have very different personalities and challenges that the couple both struggle to understand as the “complicated disability that affects how you see and interact with the world".
He went on to explain that his twins have the understanding of four year olds and “that gap seems to get wider with age".
But what really gets to Paddy isn't necessarily the challenges they face but whether they'll ever truly know how loved they are by their parents.
“What gets to me with them all, and it’s only how I think, I think, ‘Will they ever know how loved they are? Do they understand what love is?'," he said.
Paddy, who recently said he once nearly burned down his childhood home, continued: “When I’m with Leo every night in bed I will say to him, ‘Who loves you more than anything in the world?’. He’ll say, ‘You do’. Then I’ll go, ‘Do you love Daddy?’ and he’ll go, ‘Yeah’.
“But I think to myself, ‘Is he just saying that, or does he know that?’”
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Struggling with all his kids have to go through led Paddy to seek therapy after being plunged into depression that "chipped away" at him.
He said: "It dawned on me that, that’s it, that’s it for ever. There’s no ‘they’ll get better as the years go on’.
“In that whole haze of clinical depression, if you’d have given me the chance to take autism away from my children, I would have said, ‘Yeah,’ but autism is part of who they are, so why would I want to take away a part of my children which I love?
Christine and Paddy McGuinness
“I wasn’t unhappy for me. I was just stressed with the whole thing but I worked my backside off because I thought the only thing I can do for these kids is give them a life where they’re as comfortable as possible."
The doting father added: "What I should have been thinking is I need to give them as much love as I can. It’s more about having time with them. I realise that now.”
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