TODAY Show host Jenna Bush Hager says that she felt "guilt" when she found out she was expecting her third child.
The 38-year-old former first daughter, who co-hosts Today with Hoda and Jenna, said she felt bad about the pregnancy coming at the same time as her friends were struggling to expand their families – particularly Hoda Kotb who was looking to adopt another baby.
"I almost felt guilty because it was so much at once. I found out I was pregnant, I also had gotten this job. I knew from Hoda that she was dying to have another little girl to give Haley a sister. She told me that months before," she told ET.
"We weren't really trying to have a baby. We got pregnant and I called my mom and I said, 'I just have to tell her. I feel bad for a lot of people that are struggling and then I just get pregnant,'" she told them.
"I went and I sat across from Hoda and I told her, and she wept with tears of joy for me," she recalled. "Not long after she got her baby."
Jenna shares daughters Margaret, 7, and Poppy, 4, with husband Henry Hager.
They welcomed son Henry "Hal," on Aug. 2, 2019.
"My mom always says everybody gets their baby when they’re supposed to," the mother of three said to ET "And Hoda has a little girl and I had Hal after. So who knew, but just everything is supposed to happen when it’s supposed to happen."
The daughter of President George W. Bush and former First Lady Laura Bush writes all about the joys of motherhood and the pain of loss in her new book Everything Beautiful in it's own time.
As well as welcoming three children, Jenna lost three of her beloved grandparents — George H.W. Bush, Barbara Bush and Jenna Hawkins – in the space of just one year.
"It’s a book about losing my three remaining grandparents. I lost them in a span of a year," Jenna told them.
She said the title of the book is inspired by the bible verse Ecclesiastes 3:11.
"Which basically says God makes everything beautiful in its time. I think when you’re dealing with love and loss, you can realize that one day time will heal and you’ll be thinking back on these people and missing them, but also just so grateful for their lives and for the fact that you got to have these relationships with them."
"These are raw moments of how much I loved them, but then also the moments of finding out they were gone. I write about that all," she said, adding, "But I think I wrote about it for myself too, honestly, because it was cathartic. It was therapeutic to put my words, my grief onto paper."
Jenna and her twin sister Barbara made headlines for their partying days while their father, George W. Bush, was president, and she says that she learned many important lessons from her grandparents.
"When my dad became president, we weren't prepared for it. We made mistakes and we made them publicly," Jenna admitted. "But I also am so grateful that I had parents and grandparents that allowed us to fail, because how could you possibly parent if you were expected to be some perfect version of yourself?"
She says now that she is all about looking on the bright side and "finding joy – and choosing it."
The host said that she takes the good and the bad and chooses to "look at all these wonderful things as blessings, as something you’re grateful for. It helps every single day whether you’re going through grief or not," she said.
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